Kamehameha

I went in my apartment.

Into my room where the memories of us resided.

Into the sheets where our moments rested.

I laid with them and cried.

Until the sun went down.

Until the only thing I saw in my room were

shadows.

Until the sand that was the truth really settled.

You were gone.

I felt lost,

And hopeless.

I felt all the things I didn’t think I would feel while

diving so deeply.

The things that leave people isolating from

connection.

It left me wishing for a brief moment.

Wishing I never spoke to you.

Wishing I just let you walk by.

But how could I wish that?

When I felt some of the most beautiful things in my

whole life.

You felt like summer evenings.

Like comforting rainy nights in bed.

I felt safe with you.

You felt like home.